Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Struggle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It began on a overcast Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation bloomed behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then came back with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.
The attacks returned frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches typically start with severe discomfort around a single eye that persists for three hours.
About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, severe agony around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal bouts; others have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.
What connects sufferers is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.
Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.
Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.
Still, the failure to plan daily activities around erratic attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.
Ancient medical records suggest bizarre treatments for what some observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.
It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only formally classified by international medical committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.
In 1998, researchers released the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.
In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his complaints.
Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by ruling out other primary head pain disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.
A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.
Official guidelines on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some people.
But consultant specialists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.
The official guidelines need updating to reflect a